From Poets corner..

May be last for this year..you may like it :)


Roz kehta hoon bhool jaoon usse.....roz yeh baat bhool jata hoon...

Us Ka Naam Likh Likh Kar Mitana Bhool Jata Hoon, Us Ko Jab Yaad Karta Hoon Bhulana Bhool Jata Hoon..

Bohut C Aisi Baatain Hain Jo Mere Dil Mein Rehti Hain, Magar Jab Us Se Milta Hoon Sunana Bhool Jata Hoon..

Us Ke Bad Ab Her Pal Bari Mushkil Se Katta Hai, Mein Aksar Us Ko Khawabon Mein Batana Bhool Jata Hoon..

Mein Her Sham Kehta Hoon Ke Us Ko Bhool Jaon Ga, Magar Jab Subha Hoti Hai To Bholana Bhool Jata Hoon..

When things become sour..

I guess everything what we see is not always right or wrong but how many times would you feel when your mind says something is not correct and heart says go for it. What will you say to such a thing, Its Right or Wrong?

First time in  my life I loved someone so much so much not because how she looks but because she is so beutiful inside. I guess once in life everyone feels I can be with this person for my life..I have that feeling right now. But I know it dosen't matter how I feel. this emotional part of me sometimes kills me inside..I cannot have you in my life and cannot forget you either.

You know what when you discuss about that person I just die within but I can do.. God I cannot make you fall in love with me. You just want me to smile be happy even when I am in pain inside. Sorry that is not what I can do. I cannot be your friend for sure neither I am able to forget you..Life is becoming a limbo where I try to find happiness, smile virtually but its not coming from inside.

May be some day you will read this, able to feel how much I love you..but may be that day it will be late, you will be married and I don't exist but even that day I will be eager to know why not me. why I never exist for you, why I was not loved by you even as much as your friends, why you felt I cannot keep you happy for life..

God I feel so helpless, so week.

Introspection

Thought of writing this blog for a long time now but finally today is  that auspicious day :)..Just a brief blog about the thought process going through my mind nothing mind blowing but yes important for me and may be you feel same on course of reading this.

Its about life and the desires we have from life, desires which are never low and should not be, desires which one always want to fulfill , desires which drives me everyday, desires which loses its values as soon as we get it and soon we have an ambition of a new desire..

One thing is know about  myself is very rarely I will get the things which are my first choice..and when I don't get that I  try for second and then I bend down on my knees to get the last. May be temperament  is not right, May be I need a bit luck . I know you must be thinking what a damn looser but this is how things goes for me and I don't want to lie and pretend myself a hero. I have never gave up anything without trying but yes I gave up a few number of times.

But how you feel when you are up for something most important thing in your life..you are trying hard for that and somewhere on the back of the mind you feel its not possible, Can you give it up? I guess you cannot if you are not very weak and I am not weak..I will fight it out till the last. I will not bend down this time , I will stand and face the wind head on. I want God to help me this time. Somewhere I have read "you don't Quit, you get through it". I will do the same....I will be winner this time and I hope to get you with winning story at the same place..Till then Chao!!!